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“Pave long roads for yourself, ones which pass through difficult tarrains.
Today, my comrades, I am like a mother who has just given birth! I am comfortable and peaceful. Because the roots of the disturbances in my faith were channelled towards a solution – with the help of the will, the haste, and the need to do something.
The ends of the ropes have parted. The paths and possibilities have became clear, as if demands and desires were organised with the power of reason.
I gave a one paragraph proposal report to our dear organization. I am hopeful for the answer. But even if it’s negative, it doesn’t scare me anymore. In that respect, I am not in a vacuum anymore. At most, there can be a delay. My mind has made me accept recently; You cannot divide yourself into a hundred pieces and you probably still have some possibilities wherever you are. Even the worst case scenario is not death and emptiness.
After the anger and tension of the first few days, I am hopeful. This time the organisation will give what I want because my request is very logical and reasonable.
Maybe my soul has given up madness or is tired. But all the clouds of doubt dissipated, and comradeship began to shine in a rising wave behind the clouds. And even though it was snowy and stormy in Kurê jaro, my soul on its slopes calmed down and sunbathed in it’s weather conditions.
Nothing is enough to upset me today. Even the match we lost. This is possibly the first time I am not angry at something like this.
Let me be able to say I lived without any worries
Good answer please! Pave lengthy, important roads. Ones which pass through difficulty, on the brink of disaster. Let it be on the edge of a steep cliff. Let me fly away! To the lovers, the friends, the comrades, a deep breath, a tiny word of love, light and peace. Let there be a tiny smile on my face.
Let me be able to say “I lived,” without any worries. And I can say that I both wanted it, I decided with my free will and preferred it that way. And if luck gets lucky, I can look at not only the loving looks of my friends, but also at the inner world and soul of myself. Peaceful and saturated.”
-Martyr Armanc Kerboran
